Charlie Sheen ‘Wanted To Eat A Bullet’ After Hearing His HIV Diagnosis
Charlie Sheen revealed in a recent interview that he “immediately wanted to eat a bullet” after learning that he was HIV-positive.
Sheen kept his HIV diagnosis to himself for about four years, but announced the unfortunate truth in November of 2015 and has since been very open about the topic. Michael Strahan recently interviewed the movie star, parts of which aired on “Good Morning America” Wednesday.
“The day I was diagnosed, I immediately wanted to eat a bullet,” Sheen told Strahan. “But my mom was there, I wouldn’t do that in front of her, or let her find me to clean up that mess.”
“But then, something else came over me,” Sheen added. “They gave me a handful of pills and said, ‘You can go home now, and you’re going to live.’ If I was there with, you know, brain cancer or, or, a stomach thing, or some meningitis,” he continued, “we wouldn’t be sitting here right now.”
Sheen told Strahan that he now feels really good and has been pleased with his health care since his HIV diagnosis, telling the hostp he has been enrolled in an FDA study for a new drug to combat the virus. “It’s going well, and I feel like I’m carrying the torch for a lot of folks out there that are suffering from the same thing,” he said.
“I’m so grateful for what was available when it happened,” Sheen said, “and even more grateful for what’s available right now, when I’m, I’m in the middle of it, you know? I can feel the future of this thing and it’s much bigger and more important than I am.”
A little over a year after going public with his diagnosis, Sheen said “some days are better than others, but, but most days are pretty frickin’ cool,” and “there’s nothing but love out there right now.”
The former “Two and a Half Men” star hasn’t forgotten the downward spiral that landed him in his current situation, though and insists he’s still the same guy although he’s leading a different life.
“I think ultimately in our blueprint, in our DNA, I believe that we are the sum total of all of our experiences, good and bad,” Sheen explained. “But they don’t lead the charge,” he added.
“It’s fun to kind of watch sometimes,” Sheen said about looking back on his old self. “But also, just a little bit ‘cringeable.’ It’s like, ‘Dude, what the hell was that?’”
Sheen told Strahan that he was using “way too much testosterone cream” at the time to “keep the ole libido up,” which metabolized into a “roid rage.”
“That whole odyssey, that was basically an accidental roid rage,” Sheen explained. “But there’s some good quotes that came out of it, right?” he joked with Strahan.
The actor is starring in the new film, “Mad Families” that goes to theaters on January 12.