Supermodel Gisele Bündchen may seem like she has the perfect life now, but she recently revealed her dark past in her upcoming memoir.
The multi-millionaire model and wife of Tom Brady writes in her book, “Lessons: My Path to a Meaningful Life,” that she went through a difficult time in her 20s. (RELATED: CELEBRATE GISELE BÜNDCHEN’S BIRTHDAY WITH HER BEST INSTAGRAM PHOTOS [SLIDESHOW])
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“When I think back to a time in my early 20s, I remember that I felt so helpless that I questioned whether I wanted to live,” she writes via Radar Online.
“Everything had become a cage, and I was the animal trapped inside, panting for air,” Bündchen, now 38, revealed, adding she developed a heavy reliance on the anti-anxiety drug Xanax.
“Along with not knowing I was on a hamster wheel, I didn’t understand that I was also basically relying on stimulants and depressants to get me through the day,” she added.
“I was living 100 miles per hour, smoking, drinking, eating badly, not sleeping much and living pretty much out of a suitcase,” she writes. “It was intense! I was in transit all the time, either heading off or coming back from somewhere, which meant I never felt grounded or settled — or took the time to think about my life. It was just my life. And like a lot of people in their early 20s, I felt indestructible.”
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Gisele, who was long considered one of the highest-paid supermodels on earth, now spends much of her time advocating for healthy lifestyles and a positive relationship with the environment. (RELATED: GISELE BÜNDCHEN HAS SOME WORDS FOR INSTAGRAM MODELS OF TODAY)
“Uncovering stories deep inside of me made me feel vulnerable and emotional, but through facing my shadows and insecurities, I learned how to accept and love myself in a deeper way,” Bündchen wrote of her book in a recent Instagram post.
“Lessons: My Path To A Meaningful Life,” is due out out October 2.