Read Aaron Hernandez’s Chilling Suicide Notes Written Days Before His Death
It’s been over a year since Aaron Hernandez was found dead in his prison cell by hanging.
The former tight end for the New England Patriots killed himself while serving life in prison without the possibility of parole after he was found guilty of murder in 2013. He started his sentence in a maximum security prison just outside of Foxborough, Md., in 2015. (RELATED: New Series Details Aaron Hernandez’s ‘Happy’ Final Days And Bizarre Sexuality [WATCH])
But Hernandez reportedly wrote three eerie notes and left them in his cell before killing himself. His lawyer included the letters in his newly released book “Unnecessary Roughness: Inside the Trial and Final Days of Aaron Hernandez,” accompanied by his commentary, in bold.
The first, addressed to his lawyer, Jose Baez:
What’s up, brotha?
“Aaron often addressed me as his brother. We had a very close relationship. When I met him I sat him down and said , ‘I’m gonna be your lawyer, your priest, all those things.’ It was a big-brother type of relationship. We would talk about life and the object of life. I gave him advice. He was needing [it] at the time.”
Well, I wrote this letter following my acquittal and wanted to voice how I felt and let some people whos[e] music helped me get through hard times, know that it did. Wrong or right — who knows — I just follow my natural instincts and how it guides me. Pros or cons, didn’t weigh them, but I’m sure you’ll let me know your view. Besides that, I want you to know you have me forever like you never understood and time will reveal that I’m not perfect but my love and loyalty is like you’ve never seen! I appreciate all your work, time, effort, and never let that slip your mind! In time, you will see how appreciated you are, as well as all the others equally!
“I believe he means all the other lawyers on the team . . . We gave everything we had to that case, worked all-nighters. He wanted to let us know how much that meant to him.”
But never forget I will whoop your ass if you get too crazy . . . haha! time.
“That’s Aaron. He joked around all the time.”
But we could grab a drink after. All jokes aside, I hope your son is well and all your loved ones!
I need a favor — If you have any contacts for any artists like Gates, Meek Mill, Ross, Jay, Game . . . etc.
Hernandez was referring to hip-hop artists Kevin Gates, Rick Ross and Jay-Z. “Kevin Gates was a client of mine, but the others weren’t. Aaron loved rap and hip-hop, and he used music to get through tough times — and he had a lot of tough times. This shows [that] when he was writing this note that he was upbeat and positive, that he was looking forward to the future. This corresponds with my last conversation with him, hours before he passed.”
I would like to send you letters so you can send to their information or whichever way you think best. I don’t want any media really getting into me, trying to just send my love to all the artists who got me through my tough times and sending my respect to a few of the real ones out there. So I think that’s the best idea through you. It’s something I have to do and I’d appreciate if you could do that for me, if possible! If not, I’ll figure something out. Well, get at me, love ya brother!
Another, for his fiancée Shayanna Jenkins:
“Everyone called Shayanna ‘Shay,’ but Aaron almost never did. He usually called her ‘baby’ or ‘babe.’ ”
You have always been my soul-mate and I want you to love life and know I’m always with you. I told you what was coming indirectly! I love you so much and know [you] are an angel. We split into two to come change the world! Your characteristic is that of a true angel and the definition of God’s love! Tell my story fully but never think anything besides how much I love you. This was the supreme almightys plan, not mine! I love you! Let Avi know how much I love her! Look after Jano and Eddie for me — they are my boys (You’re Rich).
[Jano and Eddie] are his cousin’s young children. Their mother passed away, and Aaron wanted to look after them. Unfortunately he was in prison, so he asked Shay to look after them. I don’t know what [‘You’re Rich’] refers to.”
I KNEW I LOVED YOU = SAVAGE GARDEN
“This was Aaron and Shay’s song. It was very meaningful to him.”
On a third page, Baez said, Hernandez “sounds like a man who had accepted his fate. It’s as if he saw the angel of death at his door. In huge letters, he wrote”:
NOT MUCH TIME
I’M BEING CALLED!
[“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”]
On a fourth page, Hernandez added:
I love you all equally! We are all each other! Don’t shed one tear for I am with all of you and never wasn’t! do not go back to living while worshipping false idols in which I warned you about!
Finally, in inch-high letters, he wrote:
The Real Live Forever
On the bottom of this page is a drawing that resembles a thin rope dangling from a noose.
And the last, to his daughter, Avielle Jenkins-Hernandez:
Daddy will never leave you! I’m entering to the timeless realm in which I can enter into any form at any time because everything that could happen or not happened I see all at once! Life is eternal — believe!!! Love, repent, and see me/yourself in everyone because that’s what the truth is! I’ll see you all in the heavens awaiting you all with the same love. Never fear me, but love me with all of you! Fear is the only separation between you and I! We are each other — I/you — you/me — there’s no need to fear but what you do unto another will come back around!
Power of Now
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